Monday, 11 July 2016

Wey susah nak kawin ni wei

Have you ever been in a situation where it is all dark all around you. It is as if you are closing your eyes but you are not. You cannot tell whether your are sleeping or awaken if not because of your eyelashes that keep the lids moveable.

So, so dark, and you are heading towards the end of the path. High walls all around you, you cannot climb, nor there is any door, any window. You want to get out, you keep walking but with no defined destination. You don't even know where are you actually heading. You keep on walking in the pitch-black situation, not knowing if there is a hole right in front, nor a trap, nor anything that can take your life away.

Sensation of drowning engulfing you. You feel lonely, hopeless, irritated, tired, anxious, uncertain. 

Ha inilah apa yang aku rasa sekarang. Nak kahwin, dengan orang yang aku sendiri pilih dan redha, famili pun nampak boleh terima, tapi entah kenapa, halangan datang dari sumber yang sama.

I would appreciate if there is no such question like bila nak kahwin. I don't have the answer, I don't know who have the answer. Am I not still trapped in the darkness? How is it possible the trapped to answer such question that requires freedom?